My  Life Story 

Hello my name is Jessica F. I go to Shasta High School in Redding California. I'm going to tell you what happened to me about a year and a half ago.

On March 3rd, 2002 I found out my mother was dying of alcoholism and of drug use. I was very upset when I found out this I fell to the ground. I had just got done at chucky-e-cheese and then when I got home my father told me. I had a friend over and I told her I will be back in awhile so I rushed to the Redding Medical Center and I found my grandmother, her boyfriend, and a woman I had never seen before. The doctors at first were refusing to let all of us go in but when my dad talked to him he finally said yes. I remember walking down the hallway and seeing my mother in a small little room with glass doors so the nurses could see in her room. I went in there and held my moms hand and I remember seeing my dad crying and holding his hand sin his face. Everything around me went quiet except for my moms heart beat. I said I have to leave so I left. 

The next day I called the hospital and asked to speak with my mother. While they were calling her room my dad told me to be strong for my mom. When she got on the phone it didn't sound like her it was as if she forgot to talk. We talked for 45 minutes and I decided to go over to my grandmas house the next day when my mother was going to be transferred to my grandmothers house. My mothers last words were " Baby Girl please don't cry  mommy will be ok and I will see you tomorrow. I Love You Baby Girl." 

The next day was Thursday and I went to my grandmothers house right after school and I saw my mom. Then I called my dad and said I'm NOT going to school tomorrow I'm staying with my aunt and uncle at their house he said "Ok Jess give the family love." 

Friday I went to see my mother and when I did I just cried and I was angry with anyone and everyone around me. As soon as my cousin got there we went shopping to try and take this off of our minds. It worked by the time I got home though it was time to leave my mom one last time. 

Saturday March 23rd, 2002 was the day my mother passed away. I was not there because my aunt said my mother was getting worse and NO ONE wanted me to see her die. Right before my mother died she sat straight up looked out the window looked at my picture then looked at the wall. She stopped breathing after that. When she died my aunt called my other aunt who was on the way to see her and said she was too late and to turn around go home and tell me and my cousins. I was working on my big project, that was due on Monday, when my aunt pulled up and ran inside she looked at me with water in her eyes. I knew that my mother was gone my cousin did too so we both just started crying and we all went outside and saw the most beautiful rainbow ever.

I'm still healing but I get a little better everyday. If you need to contact me please email me at caliGCgirl89@yahoo.com

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